Wow i almost forgot my blogdrive password. how long has it been? writers block? naahhh more of like being too dumb and numb (and it ryhmes) to write anything. crap. Nope life hasnt been boring. its waaayyy too far from that actually. I was in batangas on the last week of nov up to the 1st week of dec. then my cousins and aunts from aussi and my family were have been hanging out alot. we went to one of my neice's debut party (yeah right i feel so freaking old), then we went to ocean adventure to watch the whales and the sealions and the other under water creatures and then there's christmas. I havent had that type of christmas where almost everybody in my moms side of the family was there. we all grew up so tight that even if were miles apart from each other, doest really matter if we havent seen them in like 6 years. we're still tight when they come home for a visit. then there's gonna be new year. then we'll go to cavite to visit relatives of course. Then my fav cousin kayna will arrive on the 1st with john her aussie bf. and then a week from now there's boracay. eeekkkk!

im not sure what im gonna do with my life after that. i wont be in school till june since one of my aunt's suggested i should try applying in australia for a trourist first. crap...great just great aint it. I dunno whats up with me and going down under (well not that DOWN UNDER that some of you are thinking down BOY). I miss my cousins and my lola and all my other relatives. I hated the fact that they were all there exept for my family and the fact that they all grew up together without us kinda sucks. And every once in a while there would be moments where I wonder what life would have been like if our papers for migrating was prosessed earlier and we grew up with them. But most of the time I worry about what my life would be like living there. I never wanted to leave the country, call me stupid but I dont know. Im so scared of leaving the people that I love behind. My friends and yeah HIM. It's pathetic I know. So..we'll see what Ill do about being a tourist in AUSSIE...we'll see if I'm actually gonna process those papers.

hey HAPPY NEW YEAR EVERYONE...oh yeah and belated MERRY CHRISTMAS...